The void inside

Sometimes I feel so empty deep inside my heart as if there exists a trench there. 

The busy moments make me forget everything about the emptiness or fulfillment of life and the lonely ones make me search for something spectacular to fill that void. 

Some discoveries give me a different perspective to look at things, some make me feel like - "oo I can get enlightenment" on this path😳, some make me laugh and some as usual remain futile where I get nothing except the regret of wasting my time.

The loop continues just to remind me that this emptiness is going to last forever!!!








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