Ounces and Tons: RE-START
After a long time once again present here to talk from heart to heart. Right now, I feel pain and pain around me. It's almost like a month I am not feeling good for no reason. The only reason I can think of is that I have put myself in this loop of not giving my best every day. Which is somehow trying to engulf me like Chakravyuh without letting me know the path of breaking it. I have heard people saying giving your best is difficult and sometimes painful too. But now I feel not giving your best or trying your best is much-much more painful. You cannot blame others because it is not their fault, and you cannot either blame yourself because it is unbearable. I waste time on watching comedy to make myself feel good or happy but instead go in much more deeper guilt, remorse and self-doubt. At times I realize I am making mistake and change my track but again demon of not feeling good deep inside, takes over me and I am here again wasting my precious time on something that is not worthy...