Ounces and Tons: RE-START

After a long time once again present here to talk from heart to heart.

Right now, I feel pain and pain around me. It's almost like a month I am not feeling good for no reason. The only reason I can think of is that I have put myself in this loop of not giving my best every day. Which is somehow trying to engulf me like Chakravyuh without letting me know the path of breaking it. I have heard people saying giving your best is difficult and sometimes painful too. But now I feel not giving your best or trying your best is much-much more painful. You cannot blame others because it is not their fault, and you cannot either blame yourself because it is unbearable.

I waste time on watching comedy to make myself feel good or happy but instead go in much more deeper guilt, remorse and self-doubt. At times I realize I am making mistake and change my track but again demon of not feeling good deep inside, takes over me and I am here again wasting my precious time on something that is not worthy enough to give my worthy time.

While running in this loop I have realized that it is mirage to run behind happiness. It's pain both sides. It's extremely extremely painful to not do what you had thought of doing to craft a path of success and self-worth for yourself. And it's no less painful to do what you planned to do for your goals especially when you are engulfed with an undefined feeling of sadness over time.

However, now I can see that I must bear the pain of discipline and working hard for my dreams. As I can now relate to the quote that discipline weighs ounces and regret weighs tons.

But believe me at this time the pain of discipline feels like tons. But I know it's just a matter of time, the concept of inertia of physics. Once I am able to overcome this inertia of discipline the path of abundance of growth, self-satisfaction and success will no more be far away. 

As now I believe that doing your duty diligently may not guarantee you happiness, but it will definitely guarantee that you do not fall in the unending loop of sadness, remorse and guilt.

I wish myself a good luck on this journey of transition from 

discipline----to----procrastination----to----discipline----to----success/self-growth----to----feeling of self-worth!!!


हजारों उलझनें राहों में और कोशिशें बेहिसाब, इसी का नाम है ज़िन्दगी चलते रहिये जनाब 


Hey!! I am ok now 😌👍

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  1. Puneet SharmaFebruary 29, 2024 at 8:28 PM

    This is just wowwwww, this kind of blogs are much needed ♥♥. Keep writing my darling

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